Day 9 | For Sure was completed on Twitter in a two-in-one with #FlowersInTheWild
Day 10 | Abundance was written in my journal
Today’s Prompt | Praise
I often hear how well I write. Sometimes I believe it, other times I don’t. While I don’t second-guess writing being apart of my calling, I struggle with receiving compliments from other people. It’s an internal battle within myself, feeling as though I’m not supposed to hear nice things until I’m where I want to be. I don’t want to be mistaken as conceited, a pompous jackass that can roll with the blogging big dogs, but what happens when I do get to that point? Do I stay in this shell and remember to play modest and remain humble about my work? When do I nod my head in approval and smile proudly when people tell me my work is good?
I’m where I should be; I keep telling myself that.
I received and was surprised by a comment left yesterday on the brunch recap post that read,
“Beautiful recap, beautiful women. YOU did that. You’re something special. Don’t forget it. And remind people when they don’t see it.”
Bené Viera reiterated that to me on several occasions that day and here she was again, weeks later, the day before a challenge on praise. Heh. That’s the Universe again.
Don’t be your own joy snatcher, Erica. I repeat it until my head hurts, until I make a promise to myself that I won’t allow the negativity to enter into my heart and I’ll take the praise, because I deserve it. Five years of blogging got me here. There are enough people that want to see me fail, want to see me stop writing again; I can’t give them that satisfaction.
I keep hearing kind words because I should hear them. They’re confirmations from God that this is what I’m supposed to be doing.
And I receive them and believe it.