I'm baaaaaaaack! 🙂
I have not dropped off the face of the Earth in the middle of the night while you all were sleepin'. My life has been absolutely crazy as of late. Lemme give you all a quick update……
So Rob got locked up for sitting out doing absolutely nothing on a beautiful day. The NYPD had him sitting in Central Booking for 6, count em, SIX days straight. They were better off sending his ass to jail if you ask me. That had to be the most depressing six days for me this year as I witnessed and experienced first hand what it is like to be a single mom. Trust me when I say I have a new found respect for all women out there who have a child or children and are doing it all alone. Waking up two and a half hours before my shift starts at work is the norm for me as I have to do the usual duties in the morning and head out early because I work in busy Midtown Manhattan. Waking up three and a half hours is different; and for all you sleep lovers out there, dammit that extra 60 minutes is so valuable and precious to say the least. Getting Kae dressed without waking him up (which I have failed big time 5/6 times), washing him up a bit, getting his bottles/food ready, and diaper bag set, sounds easy but TRUST ME it is not. I will openly admit to you all that ever morning I cried because I thought damn I can't do this by myself and was disappointed in me because I honestly felt I finally depended on someone else.
Independent since 20, yes I, Erica Harris, depended on not just someone to help me out but a man?! I cried for all the young girls I knew and didn't know who didn't have no one; no "baby daddy", no mom and dad of their own, not even a friend to help them out. I cried for all the girls who "didn't put theirselves in that situation" on purpose, it was just the cards that life dealt them and they had to cope with it because they were not the only life in the picture anymore.
I called out of work a few times which caused me in getting a verbal warning from my managers about my time & attendance. No one could watch my son because of work/school schedules or family issues they had to deal with. Some people just didn't feel like dealing with Kaevon and fed me bullshit excuses which they thought I'd believe because I was naiive and stupid and didn't know any better but believe, I saw through it all and because of it, haven't spoken to those since. I felt those who did try to run game on me felt like the situation on hand was my problem and one I had to deal with some kind of way because at the end of the day, its my child and not theirs. Should I have been mad for that?
Besides all that, I caught the flu for the first time, my entire household was sick, I found out some big news which I'll reveal later, my work schedules's been getting hectic being that holiday season is quickly approaching and that's pretty much it. I'm back to doing what I love which is blogging so yeah…. Welcome back me.
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